Single as Fuck

Sometimes I get tired.

Tired of everything. Like, I don't even know why I try.

It's almost always about guys. Or a guy.

The fact that I'm single as fuck.
The fact that you used to talk to me and now you don't.
The fact that I feel so hopelessly alone and sometimes nothing seems worth it.

I always overreact though.

ex: I send a text message. 30 minutes later, still no response. I immediately assume that whomever I texted hates me and wishes that I would just disappear because I'm the most annoying thing on the planet.

Also, I've realized that I fall so fast.
Like, literally, all you have to do is be semi-attractive and give me 10 minutes of your time and I will fall hopelessly in love with you. It's kind of a curse.

Clearly of desperation.

It just really sucks because I've had a guy like me and it was really awesome because I liked him too and we were cute together and dslkfja;dlfkjakjfhk.

I'm so lonely and it's so completely pathetic. The problem (well, one of them) is that I go to such a small school and hate pretty much everyone there and it just epically sucks. Like, I don't even have a reliable girl best friend, and my guy best friend has other issues most of the time or he'll just be like, "You're so perfect and one day the perfect guy will come around." I don't even want the perfect guy right now. I just want someone. Someone to hold my hand. Someone to hang out with me. Someone to act cute with.

It just makes me incredibly depressed to realize that I don't have someone who truly knows me or cares to find out who I am.